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Nicknames: tsinhee, chinee
Birthday: Sept. 10, 1988
[ hilig ]
music (rock), movies, anime, internet, drawing, computer, PS -some rpg
love animals :)
[ ayaw ]
ayoko sa mga taong nagkukunwari.. magpakatotoo nalng tyong lahat!
ayoko sa mga magpanghusga...
ayoko ng mga social climbers...
don't like cheesy luv stories
hate crappy non-sense horror movies
Email me: chichiri78@hotmail.com
betrayed_stigma@yahoo.com
raechellanne@yahoo.com
[ Sulat ]
Wednesday, August 30, 2006
haaay... parang gus2 ko nanaman ata umakyat sa rooftop at ilabas ang inis ko dun sa punching bag dun ah...
actually hindi naman ako gaanong naiinis.. bakit? coz generally, i thought we had an okay presentation... we had a good clip, a good skit portion w/c stimulated participation and we covered just what was told of us.. and i did good explaining too...
so i don't know why it should've turned out that way... my initial reaction was.. watever.. but then my groupmates showed signs of concern because of our prof's comments
damn him!! i hardly slept just to make that intro movie, ella hardly studied just to make the slides, and do u think he'd notice?? noooooo!!! that freakin', no-good, unappreciative, criticizing, perfectionist, sadist, brown little pokemon!!!
hmmn... got to chat w/ mom... got thinking tuloy... we talked about our dreams for the future and stuff.. her dream is to have a kindergarten (free for all!) in the farm (another dream of hers) and to help many many people.. my retirement dream is to establish a wildlife/environment conservation foundation... and my career dream is to be able to start a gaming or animation/arts (combined w/ IT) studio in the philippines!!! waahoo!! we have so many talented pinoys gone to waste or gone to international studios... pity
then i remembered Dylan Wilk that multimillionaire british (gaming founder) son in law of Tony meloto (founder of gawad kalinga)... he's so inspiring.. what he did for the philippines tingnan nio cia he's even travelling to advocate the alleviation of poverty in out country.. so kind of him... nkkhiya na tayong mga pinoy mismo ang iniisip lang politika, pagra rally, pag aaway, at paglayas dito sa bansa... nakakahiya... tsk tsk tsk..
i have a dream! lets hope our dreams (good ones a...) come true..
+ [ tsinhEE ] n a n d 2 p a + Buwahahahaha!;) 12:46 AM
Saturday, August 26, 2006
fortunately enough, this is not the case... kaya pa naman sabi nga nila... (kaya pero nasa punto na na sobrang sobraNG sobRANG SOBRANG gusto ko nang sumuko!!!!)
my friend's getting stressed about her upcoming debut... and in an odd and why-the-hell? kinda way i'm feeling stressed about it to... i feel like even there, i'll have a lot expected of me.. (she said it herself.. "ui dpat ung speech mo maganda.. mapaiyak mo ako..." ) neh?? waaah!!
yes i'm an expert at being her tearjerker but in letters and cards and private confession sessions but.. before 100 people.. where 90% are all utterly unknown and unfamiliar to me! haaay pressure.. i don't even have something to wear...
our days have been going so so so so bad... ( okay at least my over studying for history paid off ) but everything is sooo i don't know... soo hard... one word to describe Sopho year... MAHIRAP!!
i'm anxious, frustrated, stressed, angry, sad, (hungry) and disappointed all at the same time.. i was able to maintain homeostasis all week.. while up and about running errands that never end... and this.. this saturday was supposed to be my OKAY day... it was supposed to be the day i pick out a gown for the debut, get tin a gift, finish a bit of our report and just get so many errands out of my hectic hectic schedule!!!
but things weren't good even at the beginning.. i stepped on wet cement in our site in NSTP (and not intentionally contrary to the shouting claims of the lady over there) "tanga tanga! sinadya niya yan! napaka.... walang modo! etc etc... " words that were clawing at my chest bit by bit... while i was timidly tucking my foot behind the chair.. (for signs) good thing they didn't find out it was me... two things could've happened... :
i totally wimp out or i let out the big outburst of reasoning (with layers of the frustration, anger, and defiance) that i've been keeping bottled in me for weeks!
then what do i go home (dorm) to? i find out i'm unable to do the things i set out to... why??! no transpo! worse is i can't refix my sched.. i tried tweaking it.. then they still didn't follow through.. what am i to do?? i have nothing... i can't sacrifice anymore... i've already wasted 4 hours of just waiting..when i could've done so much ... and could've rid myself of burdens!
so i calmed myself in the rain... yes i watched it pour... i went up to the rooftop alone and watched the view; the busy cars, quiet buildings and dancing umbrellas all glazed under the rain in a misty backdrop... i stayed for a few minutes.. dumuyan, naglakadlakad, kumanta (the used's "I caught fire" is the BEST!!), kinausap ung pusa, at binugbog ung punching bag sa gym...
and i guess it did work...
i can't do anything about these things... we never seem to be able to...
i wish we could...
+ [ tsinhEE ] n a n d 2 p a + Buwahahahaha!;) 3:38 AM
Wednesday, August 16, 2006
Kamusta naman? haha. Ang galeng. Ngyon lng ulit ako nka update... haay.. masasabing natapos na nga ang aming more than 2 weeks na panay stress at trabaho, sa ngayon.
cympre me mga darating pa... sa totoo lang... ang dami kong reklamo nun.. daming hinanakit.. daming beses na kamuntikan nang sumuko... ganoon nman lahat e... close call ung CS n un... sobrang dun ako na frustrate!!! as in!! lahat nman ata... pro im sure others got it easy (dahil s magaling or me mga kilalang magaling and willing haha)
kagaya nung sa kanta.. nagmistulang Bad day ang lahat ng araw araw nmin... ang galing nga e sabay sabay ang mga subjects nmin kung mag pagawa ng kung ano ano..
pero wala wla n akong ganang magreklamo.. naubos na ang lakas ko.. (ndi ko akalaing posible pala un?!?! haha) okay pala e.. sa sobrang pagod pati pagrereklamo nababawasan... masaya lang cguro ko ngayon kc kahit papaano tapos na sila... hindi naman sa walang iba pang proj pero at least ung hell weeks mdyo wla na... sa uulitin!! haha...
at isa pa.. long weekend dude!!! yeah! makakapahinga n ko!! drawing, tv, cine, tulog ( esp Mall! na miss na kita!! ) oo malaking bagay na ang kumpletong weekend para sa amin.. dahil bihira lng ito
salamat salamat... pro pagtapos nun.. balik sa aming mga hectic na sched.. oh well.. knina meeting ng AD team ng org nmin.. msaya khit 8 lng kmi haha! sana ngayon me saysay n pagsali ko s org...
gud luck sa ating lahat!
+ [ tsinhEE ] n a n d 2 p a + Buwahahahaha!;) 3:27 AM
Tuesday, August 01, 2006
just not my (our group's day)... we totally sucked! i mean really!!! i wish i could turn back time and reclaim my honor.. but too late for that.. we were able to talk our way out of a bad grade but what we did in front of everybody will be the same...
what i hate the most... esp. that these people don't really know us.. is that we weren't able to show them what we really are capable of.. its our faults too i guess.. lacked coordination.. slacked off too much... haaay... cramming really is bad.. but it wasn't only that.. it was a mix of many other factors beyond our control!! its so unfair.. why did it have to happen to us?? we didn't even have time to save face.. ok maybe a bit. but it doesn't matter..
i feel like a big failure.. at least right now.. hopefully we do excellent next time.. (next time, for sure!!!) i won't take this! i wont accept it!
this stupid school is really testing us... why admu?! why?! this is the same feeling i had when i sorta directed my group for this play and it turned out soooo bad! i felt like shit!! only this time its not as worse.. 1) i wasn't the leader (buti nga i was initiating) 2) at least we got another chance 3) it was shorter
but things that made it worse 1) it was shorter (ergo.. should've been easier) 2)we could've done so much better 3) we simply lacked initiative and cooperation!!
after that incident before, i bounced back.. hah! 4th yr play i got good actors for grpmates and our top 3 in the school as a co leader of some sort.. we practiced a LOT! i really sought out good bg music and props.. etc.. good set.. (thanks to KH for some bg music! hehe)
so hopefully, we bounce back too... haay failures...
+ [ tsinhEE ] n a n d 2 p a + Buwahahahaha!;) 12:47 AM
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